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What do you really want?

Ahoy, Traveler!

In my own cosmic travels, there is a question (among many others) that has continually reappeared at the forefront of my mind.

That is,

What do I really want?

Seems like a simple enough question, one that might easily be answered in any given moment with,

I want a hot coffee.


I want a good night's sleep.


I want to make hot sensual love for hours with a sexy lover.

Easy, right? We're always doing what we want, or at least doing things we kinda don't want to do, so that we can do or have the things we want.


Well, perhaps it is not so easy to answer this question, not when we go a little deeper.

And, as you will soon get to know about me, I go deeper. It's what I do. As a hypnotist, an artist, a metaphysician, a philosopher,

I am always going deeper — and taking you with me! (If you want.)

So now I will ask you that same question, and please, give yourself a minute or two and really explore it for yourself.

What do you really want?

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Well? What did you come up with? You might even like to write about it in this very moment in your journal.

(And if you don't have a journal, then go get one or make one this instant and start writing. Trust me, it helps.)

Now I'll ask you the same question, a bit differently. See what you come up with.

What do you really want?

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Anything different arise for you? Something deeper, more meaningful, perhaps?

You see, we often think we want this, when what we really want  is that.

Often, this is merely a means of getting that. For example, money is a means of getting a lot of things we think we want.

The keyword here is "think."

I'll ask one more question:

How do you know what you really want?

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This is where it can get a bit tricky, Traveler.

Why do you want what you think you want?

(Yes I asked another question. Hey, it's another thing I do. Asking questions is how we learn and evolve. Questions are a container for desire, and desire is the driving force of soul evolution.)

This is a good line of questioning to pursue in yourself, because it will reveal to you what you really want, not merely what you think you want.

Sincerely wondering this can be quite profound. It puts you in touch with your true desire. And what is desire? How can we talk about it? Describe it?

Desire is a feeling, a force, a kind of energy that propels us forward into becoming more of who we are — if we follow it.

Isn't it obvious today that we live in a society that programs us to be consumers of things?

Consumers of trivial dollar-store items, consumers of extravagant status objects like expensive cars and houses and technologies, consumers of fast-food mindsets and ideations that lack the vital nutrients of meaning and magick that our souls truly crave?

Amidst all of that which we have been conditioned to consume are the ideas, beliefs, and stories of others.

These are force-fed to us (although with our consensual attention), our eyes glued to the screen, our minds blankly absorbing whatever information the attractive sharply dressed professional telepromt reader behind the desk is speaking.

The ads, the billboards, the gossip, the overflowing backup of trash opinions and cultural trends and "current things" — how is all this actually serving you in answering this fundamental question:

What do you really want?

Don't let Them tell you what you want!

Answer that qustion for yourself, Traveler.

Answer it truthfully, with as much radical courageous honesty as you can muster...

And you may well discover that your life as you are living it today...

and have been living it for quite some time now...

is simply not aligned with your true desire.

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Ah... so then... what now?

Indeed, what now?

Well, Traveler, now the real journey begins.

It is the quest for the Holy Grail — but not just the Holy Grail.

Your Holy Grail.

How sweet will it be to one day drink from that sacred chalice knowing that you yourself chose to fulfill your true desire, chose to go for it with everything you had

and succeeded.

It takes courage to make that journey. You will fail and fail and fail again...

until you succeed.

It will be worth it, my friend.

Go for it.

Go for it now.

You have waited long enough, and you deserve to have what you really want.

How do I know this?

It is simple, really.

I know you deserve to fulfill your true desire because,

I am just like you.

And I deserve this too.



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